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Abby's still alive [Sunday
September 9th, 2007 at 11:36am]
Just thought I'd let whoever may read this know.
I feel quite accomplished at my state of living.

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cause myspace is being a tard [Friday
July 20th, 2007 at 9:16pm]
I totally wrote this today. I'm gonna come back tomorrow, read it, and die. Like, "Why the fuck did I even type that up!?" But oh well, I like it now. lol

I was inspired by some old letters I wrote to one of my ex's. Strangely he sent them back with a crazy letter telling me I was delusional. =(


I saw you sitting alone. Your hope, love, and soul sank deep into the grass and dirt, while your body stayed aloft as if nothing were out of place. No one would have guessed what you had just witnessed. The pain and suffering you held within suffocated your surroundings, open for me to see. Just me. It became our little secret.
I cried for you that night. I cried for what you felt. I could sense deep inside me your continuing pain. I cried for me, for the trauma I felt in sympathy. I cried for us.
Soon you will forget her. As you weep for your lost I will find your side and stay by it. With the deepest part if my heart and my soul I will connect with you. Your loving spirit will feel me and know that we are meant for each other. In this way I will stay by your side and comfort you. To your earth bound body it will be nothing, but in your soul you’ll know. I know you’ll know.
When your sorrow subsides, finally, you will see me. You will see me for what I am, the love within you.
Your love for me will be so great. I’ll be able to tell you that I only did it for us. She was in our way of finding each other. She had you under such an evil spell that there was no other way to make her gone. I had to do it. You’ll understand. You have to. You will.
I apologize that you had to see her die. I’m truly sorry that you had to see me do it. I didn’t mean for you to see, but soon the memories of her death will be fond ones, when you know it was for us. It won’t matter as we live happily ever after. Together. Us. Always. You will understand.
I sit here in the shadows of an empty shack, spiders laying eggs in my hair. They’re waiting for my death while I only wait for you. If death is how long I have to wait, so be it. Our souls will find each other. If death is how long it will take for you to understand, so be that, too. Death can be optional. I can make it come sooner for us, my dear. My beloved. For us.
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June 25th, 2007 at 2:13pm]
Have you ever been working on a story and you realized that the underlying feeling was something completely different than what you planned, but it was exactly what you were feeling or thinking about? I'm about halfway through this story I'm working on and I just realized that the MC is full of self doubt, she never trusts what she thinks is true, so she listens to other people.

so not on purpose.
it was cool to find that though. lol
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June 16th, 2007 at 8:03pm]
So, I have OCD but I never thought to look up anything about it until recently and I was just reading this stuff and it's so awesome. I'm about on the verge of tears because what it's saying is exactly what I'm going through and it just makes me feel so much less... crazy... mentally ill... sick and twisted.
I can't even explain it. Having it makes me feel like shit. You have no idea. But reading this and knowing that other people have the same issues, and people are aware of it... I feel like crying from relief, or something... lol
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today O.O [Tuesday
June 12th, 2007 at 12:15pm]
Today is my day to do NOTHING!!!!!!!
I will refrain from like... applying for scholarships, or um... cleaning my room and other stuff I should do because today... I do...NOTHING!

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wooooooow [Sunday
April 8th, 2007 at 8:42pm]
*ish not dead* ...*kinda*

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January 20th, 2007 at 12:58pm]
You Failed High School

Time to hit the books!
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omg an update? [Saturday
August 26th, 2006 at 1:24pm]
Yeah, cause I actually have stuff going on.
I graduated and I have a job.
ok that's about it.
I didn't have to drive to the union placey though cause a lady came to Vons today so I got to join the union there. ^_^
I'm a bagger at vons. heheh
Church tomorrow! *glee* wow, this week went by fast.
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July 29th, 2006 at 2:04pm]
Your True Love Is a Gemini

Why you'll love a Gemini:

Witty and sharp, a Gemini can keep up with your fast (and ever changing) mind.
You're both fun loving and free spirits. You and a Gemini can enjoy each other without expectations.

Why a Gemini will love you:

Not only can you keep up with a Gemini's sharp tongue, you can introduce a challenge or two...
You're appetite for fun and novelty will keep a Gemini interested - at least for a bit longer than usual!
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July 10th, 2006 at 12:18pm]
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

I miss somebody right now.  (I guess I can if I think about it...) × I don't watch much TV these days. × I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. I love to play video games. × I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies. × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.  (Always changing) × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
it goes on...Collapse )
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July 7th, 2006 at 6:58pm]
You Are Most Like Bill Clinton

No doubt, your legacy may be a little seedier than you'd like.
But even though you've done some questionable things, you're still loved by almost all.
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July 6th, 2006 at 3:09pm]
You Are Elektra

There's really no superhero with more style than you.
Because who could beat being sexy assasin ninja?
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July 1st, 2006 at 1:39pm]
You Failed 8th Grade US History

Sorry, you only got 3/8 correct!

I HAVE NO MYSPACE!!!!!! Cause of my stupid horrible wireless internet. AGH!
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June 30th, 2006 at 12:47pm]
You Are 25% Normal

You sure do march to your own beat...
But you're so weird, people wonder if it's a beat at all
You think on a totally different wavelength
And it's often a chore to get people to understand you
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June 21st, 2006 at 8:16pm]
You Are 36% Lady

You tend to make up your rules of etiquette, throwing all conventions aside.
And while you try to be a lady (sometimes), your behavior is often quite shocking.
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June 20th, 2006 at 6:08pm]
I want Snoopy

I miss Snoopy
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June 14th, 2006 at 9:48pm]
Exotic Dancer Name Is...

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June 14th, 2006 at 9:47pm]
You Are 60% Gross

You're more than a little gross, but probably no more gross than the average person.
Maybe it's time to drop some of those disgusting habits that could eventually embarrass you!
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June 13th, 2006 at 10:25pm]
Jesus Facking Christ!

Ok, so Jay's Friend's Brother went missing for a while and his mom called here asking Allen to go look for him except THEY couldn't look yet cause someone had to eat or something. So Allen starts walking around the apartments but mom tell him to come back cause the kid wouldn't just be hanging out outside, he'd be in an apartment. So he comes back and we're sitting here worrying about this kid. I want to attack every random car that drives by because a random car could be what took him, ya know? Even though it wouldn't come back, had that been the case, I still wanted to. And I couldn't eat, and I wanted a snack. =( Omg, and they enevr called the police. This kid is like five and gone but instead of calling the police they sit in there house and eat, but it turns out that they sent a couple young kids into the night to walk around and look for him. We found that out cause I asked if Allen should call them and see if they found the kid. so he did. You know what they said? "Yeah, he just walked in a little while ago." -_-
He came in with the two kids they sent out to looks
Ok... The thing is, they send Allen out to look, but when the kid come home they DON'T call Allen... who, for all they know, could still be wandering around the apartments looking.

There is a reason they live in the apartments by the Developmental Hospital.
But like, completely for real. Doesn't piss me off any less though.
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June 7th, 2006 at 10:04pm]
You Are a Beagle Puppy

Cheerful, energetic, and happy go lucky.
And you're sense of smell is absolutely amazing!
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